Friday, February 22, 2013

Angels...

Victoria's Snow Angel, who adorns the front porch
Recently on an outing to find thrift store treasures, I found myself in the book aisle at a local Goodwill. I discovered several books that piqued my interest on the topic of angels. I love studying about angels, and often feel their presence in my life, and daily call on their assistance in matters great or small. Thus I was delighted to purchase the books (at half price even!) and couldn't wait to get home and delve into them.

One particular book that I picked up was a compilation of angel visitations which occurred during difficult times that the contributing authors were going through or accounts of their near death experiences. I thoroughly enjoyed reading these stories because for me, each account is inspirational and makes me feel confident and safe in the knowledge that angels do watch over us in love and protect us, and when it's time to leave our physical body, even tenderly assist in bringing us to our real home.

The book also reminded me of my first angel visitation when I was just a young pregnant first-time mom-to-be, living far away from home. My guardian angel literally 'had my back!'

You see, my husband and I had moved from Texas to San Francisco in 1975 when I was in my early twenties. At the time of my angelic encounter, I was 'great' with child, being 8-months pregnant with my daughter. We were living in a first floor apartment and had made dear friends with a young couple who lived in an upstairs apartment in the same complex. They had asked me to water their plants while they were away for a week, and I agreed.

When I set out on that brisk, foggy morning with watering can in hand, I remember thinking as I climbed each step how very steep the stairs were. And narrow. Plus, the huge fern to the right of our friends' front door was on a very small landing and in fact took up most of the space on the landing. It might be a bit easier to lift the watering can and maintain one's balance for someone who could actually see their feet when they looked down, but my only view was a big round belly!

As I was lifting up the watering can to empty the contents on the plant, the inevitable happened. I lost my balance and felt myself tumbling backwards in slow motion down the steep concrete stairs. Immediately, and I do mean immediately even before I reached the first top step, I felt two hands on my back break my fall as if they were literally catching me. Then they softly and gently raised me upright until I was standing steadily on my own two feet. With my heart beating rapidly, I turned around to look at my knight (or knightess) in shining armor, and lo and behold, not a soul was in sight. Not one person. No one.

Then whose hands had I felt on my back? Who had stopped my fall? Who gently put me back on my feet?

I know without a doubt that I was rescued from falling down that concrete flight of stairs that morning by my guardian angel - of that I am sure. My healthy baby daughter was born three weeks later, and I rejoiced knowing what might have been if not for my angel's intervention that day.

Through the years I've shared my angel story with others, and in turn, have listened to theirs. I like to remind myself that my angels are constantly present by collecting angel statues and putting them everywhere around my home, inside and out (meet my Snow Angel, pictured above). They make me smile. And that's a good thing. : )

Monday, February 11, 2013

Reflections from an ice cream shop...

My 5-year-old grandson and I were out for ice cream. He was his usual bubbly, enthusiastic and adorable self, savoring every bite of his pistachio frozen yogurt adorned with gummy worms, sweet and sour candies, and topped with colorful sprinkles! We chatted about his school day as he noticed two more customers entering the shop. They ordered their treats and then came to our area and sat down next to us - a grandmother with her granddaughter around the same age as my grandson. In his innocent and carefree way, he said a few words of greeting to the little girl. I smiled to myself, admiring his easy and natural manner of befriending the girl. Then he said to me, "Grandma, say something to the other grandma. They are just like us - see," pointing to them, "grandma and granddaughter," and then pointing to us, "grandma and grandson. Go ahead. Say hi. It's okay."

Oh the innocent bliss of children! When do we outgrow that inner caring and respect for others that cause a child to reach out and show love and acceptance so naturally...to say we are in this together, and I will be your friend. It has to start with someone, right? That day in the ice cream shop, my grandson extended his generous heart to others. And it only takes one person to start that flow of love.

I learned that the hard way. Several years ago I worked at an outpatient drug and alcohol treatment center. Clients were not there because they wanted to be there. They were court mandated usually because of DUIs, and they were certainly not happy about it. It was a costly lesson for them to learn, and trust me, they were mad as heck about it, and it was rarely their own fault, or so they thought!

I was the first person they saw when they walked through the door and also the first person they talked with when they called to schedule their initial appointment. Consequently I received a lot of their negativity. And they were very generous with it! I thought I could handle anything, but the anger, frustration, and disrespect made me feel like I had the weight of the world on my shoulders, day in and day out. It was taking its toll on me emotionally and physically.

I lamented to my husband every night after work, not knowing how I could continue to deal with such negative energy from our clients. It took me a while to finally go within for the answer, but one day as I journaled and meditated about my dilemma, I heard, "Let the God in me see the God in them." That's all. That's exactly what I heard. Too easy, right? Or perhaps too hard? The answer was to change my perception and to allow the God-ness that is in each of us to connect on a deeper level of respect and acceptance by honoring one another. What a difference that made!

I committed from that day on that every time someone walked through the doors of that agency, the God in me would see the God in them. Every time I answered the phone, my prayer was that the God in me would be communicated through the phone lines. And it worked! There were times I could literally feel the anger dissipating as I applied this principle. I was amazed at the response from people when they felt respected and honored and heard and accepted, even in their frustration and anger.

I love using that principle now in my daily life, even though I forget sometimes. That's why it was so refreshing for my 5-year-old grandson to remind me to always see that kindred spirit in others. Wouldn't our own little neck of the woods be a kinder place to live if we did so? May it begin with me.

In love and light...

Victoria Lynn




Thursday, February 7, 2013

Why blog? Why me? Why now?

Sigh. I've known for a while I should be blogging. I've felt it. I've just known. The reason is that I know deep inside of me are words that are bubbling forth... words to inspire... words of love... words of change... words to uplift.

Why me? I have no formal training in learning to live an inspired life. Some may even say my everyday  life is rather mundane. And yet, I know. I know that I know that every breath I take is an incredible miracle. I know that when I look into my children's eyes, they are part of the miracle of my life. As I find moments of intimacy and friendship with my husband, I am blessed. When I spend time with my grandchildren, listening to their innocent laughter, I am witnessing the purest joys of life.

As I look out my kitchen window and visit with the hummingbird who daily dines with me, I know that all is well. When the deer appear on my lawn, or the sun breaks through the clouds, or peace surrounds me as I meditate, I rejoice and am thankful.

Because I choose to acknowledge these everyday occurrences as miracles in my life for which I am grateful, love overflows. That's just how it works. I am not a theologian nor a philosopher. I live my life to the best of my ability in love, kindness and gratitude, and my abundance multiplies.

That, my friend, is why I have decided to enter the world of blogging... that's why I feel I am qualified to share my inspired life. If only one person enjoys reading my everyday stories, and chooses just for now, just for today, to feel the miracle of life around her and embrace it, then so be it.

Be blessed and live in light...

Victoria Lynn